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Afterthoughts - Wires
05:15
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Problems develop on these dreary weekends when I spend them all alone.
But I have people in my life who help me cope with the feeling of not being home.
I found out who meant the most to me after those forlorn teenage years
This is the time of my life
People come and go on the journey you've embarked on to find out who you really are
I think I finally found my best friends
All of my life I thought I was an outcast
My personality and mannerisms contrast
With the masses but we're wired different ways
Then fate comes along and connects me with the ones I can relate
I found out who meant the most to me after those forlorn teenage years
This is the time of my life
People come and go on the journey you've embarked on to find out who you really are
I think I finally found my best friends
It took me far too long to conquer these demons
I wish you knew how hard it really is for me
To find trustworthy friends whose lives I will defend
This turned out to be my brightest dream
My mind becomes a darker place when all the wires get tangled up
When you are far away
The disconnect occurred as our friendship developed
Then you drove on the highway
When you make your return or when I make my arrival
I swear I'll be okay
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Problems develop on these dreary weekends when I spend them all alone.
But I have people in my life who help me cope with the feeling of not being home.
I found out who meant the most to me after those forlorn teenage years
This is the time of my life
People come and go on the journey you've embarked on to find out who you really are
I think I finally found my best friends
All of my life I thought I was an outcast
My personality and mannerisms contrast
With the masses but we're wired different ways
Then fate comes along and connects me with the ones I can relate
I found out who meant the most to me after those forlorn teenage years
This is the time of my life
People come and go on the journey you've embarked on to find out who you really are
I think I finally found my best friends
It took me far too long to conquer these demons
I wish you knew how hard it really is for me
To find trustworthy friends whose lives I will defend
This turned out to be my brightest dream
My mind becomes a darker place when all the wires get tangled up
When you are far away
The disconnect occurred as our friendship developed
Then you drove on the highway
When you make your return or when I make my arrival
I swear I'll be okay
Fall Came
I've gone insane all thanks to you.
What is this hell you had to put me through.
You never took the action to speak to me.
(I've learned) that actions speak louder than words,
Regardless of what you have heard.
Above all things assigned to do,
I always tried to talk to you.
But all attempts have failed and your ship has set its sails.
We used to hang out in the summer,
Then fall came and shattered all our plans like shards of glass
Blown away by the winter.
We spent those nights driving through city roads
Singing to songs that we all love and know.
I wish my whole life could have stayed this way.
But now friendships are one-sided.
I was once one to confide in.
This is the fire that you ignited.
And every single day, I always try to find a change.
I've gone insane all thanks to you.
What is this hell you had to put me through.
You never took the action to speak to me.
(I've learned) that actions speak louder than words,
Regardless of what you have heard.
Above all things assigned to do,
I always tried to talk to you.
But all attempts have failed and your ship has set its sails.
One month later, miscommunications brought up these unnecessary situations.
This is the seed you planted in my head.
It sprouted feeding off my depression.
My will to live resorted to regression.
Funny how destruction is a form of creation.
This broken mind has embodied aggression.
I have no need for your empty life to fill the void in me.
'Cause now I've found a place in my head where I'm finally free.
All attempts have failed, and your ship has set its sails.
I've gone insane all thanks to you.
What is this hell you had to put me through.
You never took the action to speak to me.
(I've learned) that actions speak louder than words,
Regardless of what you have heard.
Above all things assigned to do,
I always tried to talk to you.
But all attempts have failed and your ship has set its sails.
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You should not get what you have not earned
What I do from here is none of your concern
It didn’t work, yeah I know it hurts
But it’s gotta give before it gets much worse
Gotta give up on you
We’ve got a lot of history
But there’s too much space between you and me
You have plans, yeah I have dreams
But do I have the guts in me
To leave, pack my shit and leave
The irony gets the best of me
I’m sad that we split but you’re still happy
What I gave to you was more than memories
What you took from me wasn’t worth anything
Gotta give up on you
You never cared enough, you never earned my trust
You just took what you could get
You never lift me up, I never feel your love
I know exactly what this is
I’m tired of the weight when you lean on me
If I fell you would never stay to carry me
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Settling
02:29
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I never thought I'd stay in one place
Baby, I'm made to move
Lately I've been thinking of setting down
Staying still and not fucking around
Cause I've fucked up my life
More than you know
And I just can't seem to let it go
They say the 20's are the best years of your life
Well I haven't found out yet
Lately I've been feeling sad and lonely
And there's so much more that I need to see
But they're plenty of years left
I will be the person who I choose to be
Sell my shortcomings and cut my losses
Take my small problems and smash them to pieces
Take a close look I hope you see
This shitty life I'm living is still worth leading
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Death is a Trend
04:33
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They try to tear us down
When we head straight up
Money well earned makes money well spent
There's so much more in this world than dollars and cents
You're force fed toxins through your own cup
A whole world against you, it's time to stand up
Look down deep, no this is not the end
They'll try to tell you that death is a trend
Hold close to the ones that you love
Not to the freedom you are deprived of
We like to tell ourselves we're trying
In reality We're all just dying
Your mind is a battlefield, you'll never win
Not even the purest live without sin
This life is stagnant, but we're mostly content
Make the time you have, be time you well spent
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Clear the Air
03:22
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I wanted to tell you, I wanted to share,
Some important details that you're unaware
I want you to listen, I want you to care,
I'll choke to death if I don't clear the air
It's not a secret that I obsess,
And then I get angry, and then I get stressed
And you can't imagine, you can't compare,
You have no frame of reference and then you get scared
I'm doing my best to help make you see,
That it's not your fault, when I'll beg and I'll plead
It's much easier just to go back to sleep,
We gotta find a place to start because I'm falling apart
I never feel happy, I never feel safe,
I can't let myself ever stay in one place
I look in the mirror and I see the face
Of a failure who will never be significant
The face that you see from morning to night
Is the mask that I put on to hide whats inside
I don't take it off until you fall asleep,
I don't want you to see what live inside of me
I thought I'd get older and it'd go away,
But it only gets worse and causes more pain
And being alone is getting so hard, I just got to tell you
God damnit, I'm falling apart
I'm down on my knees in the dark
Feeling for whatever is left
But the pieces are falling too far
God damnit, I'm falling apart
I'm down on my knees in the dark (I'm falling apart)
Feeling for whatever is left (I'm falling apart)
But the pieces are falling too far
Don't leave yet, I haven't got to the part that explains at all
Don't leave yet, I need some body there to catch me before I fall
God damnit, I'm falling apart
I wanted to tell you, I wanted to share,
Some important details that you're unaware
I want you to listen, I want you to care,
I'll choke to death if I don't clear the air right now
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Sound Ave. Mattituck, New York
Beginning in 2013 as an outlet for his songs, Lee Carlson started Sound Ave. to reflect on life, tell stories, and remind people that genuine and honest music still thrives on the North Fork of Long Island.
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